Sleep

My love for sleep has been a long loving relationship. It has lasted my whole life! My mom has always told me I could always sleep long periods of time, and would be very hard to get up in the mornings. Before having my daughter I could easily sleep 10+ hours. Now I can't sleep more than 8hours.
My body has this internal clock that tells me, I have to be up in order to feed and dress Hannah. I will only sleep 8 hours even when I'm sick and can't move. Those times I wake up sick I may be in bed but I'm awake. It takes me longer now to recover from being sick than it did when I was younger. I have asked my doctors why that is and all they tell me is that some people need more sleep than others.
I still have a relationship with sleep. As I'm sure every one does. Its just not as loving as it use to be. Now I'm so busy I don't have enough hours in the day to get every thing done, if I sleep even the normal 8 hours.
I have found that I am sleeping less and less but am able to still function on the fewer hours of sleep. My brain still thinks as it did before and I would love to sleep more but thats just not vesible. I hope every thing slows down and I am able to get more sleep in the future. I guess I will just have to wait and see.

Holiday Season

This is usually one of my favorite times of year! And this year I feel ho hum.Its been a very busy and trying year. I want to get into the spirit of the season but its really hard this year. I have to work both Thanksgiving and Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. I love the smell, the music and all the beatiful decorations.
In years past I have driven around looking at all the decorations and lights. Thats definatly my daughters favorite part, the lights. She always uuuuussss and awwwwws them. It's hard not to smile after hearing her fawn over the lights. Maybe what I have to do is put up decorations and lights to help turn my mood around. I would hate for my mood to rub off on her. Especially when shes so happy. Its also her birthday two days after Christmas and I want her to think that her birthday matters to me!
Another great part of this time of year is my moms homemade candy!! Peanut butter balls, peanut brittle, fudge, and cookies. A couple of times my mom and I have made chocolate covered pepermints.
I hope everyone enjoys the holiday season. I am just hoping my mood can be changed!

Mediation: Does it work?

So with having to go to court with my daughters father for custody of my daughter, we have to go to mediation. It is to see if we can settle our disagreements outside of court. I have to ask myself if it truely works? I have never been to mediation but I've heard it can go either way. I am hopeful that it works out the best way possible for Hannah. But I'm at my witts end, to the point where I am writing up a proposal and am going to stick to it.
He can either agree to my terms or off to court we go. I know I shouldn't think that but I am tired of trying to make things work and getting no where. I'm sure every one feels that way at some time and point in their life but I'm no longer taking no for an answer.
I've always been the person to bend over back wards for every one else. And all it got me was walked all over. People like to use and abuse others so easliy and freely that it is sickening. I epsecially empower woman to stop being used and abused by others. I have been there done that and I know its not easy to change or leave. HaHa this went way off what I was trying to ask, but I guess only time will tell if mediation works. I supose it has to work some of the time for the court to make it manditory before going in front of a judge. Although I think Hannahs dad will be less likely to tell me what i want to hear and not follow through. Again time will tell...

New Adventures to come!

So my last post was about dead beat parents and child support. This one is about mine and my daughters new adventures! This week I have had a really hard time with being a single parent and getting threw everything by myself.
As the child support problem came up, I have decided to go for full custody of my daughter. I don't think her father is in her life enough to make an informed decision on her life and shouldn't be allowed to make unenformed decisions about Hannahs life.
So with that said, should I get full custody I have made an informed decision that once my schooling is done we are going to move out of the state. To somewhere warmer!!
I'm very excited about it as I hate winter and snow. I wouldn't mind coming back for visits, as I have alot of family here. It will be exciting to not have to worry about winter coats or boots. Shoveling snow in freezing blistery weather does NOT appeal to me at all. Hannah as a young child also doesn't like the cold. She would always make me carry her and would not what so ever touch the snow.
My mom has always been talking about AZ, so I think that may be where we move. My mom has these funky ideas about buying land and building her own energy efficiant house. Using the land to raise cattle and pigs and grow all of her own fruits and veggies. Its a great idea what with the prices of food and the price of engery. The only couple of bills you would have to pay would be the land taxes, (or rent) and to feed the animals, and the septic tank drainage.
I never had a 5 to 10 year plan but I have changed that! I am most definatly set on what I'm going to be doing. Every person needs to stay positive in this negative world!